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i think im rebelling....yep...against her...its not like ive even met anyone that i could have a potential relationship with....and im already trying to end this one...or well not trying..but probably donna end up doing so...i keep fucking up my life...i keep fucking thigns up....and i want something stable...fuck...fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck...i want her to be here...im supposed to be the one who can handle the distance....ohh fuck...you know...its just pms...i swear it...tomorrow ill be alllllllllll gklsdfsf kgfjkjkfsfjksfjksfSJKDh .....faaaaaallllaaaaaafaaaaaaduxk.....asfl;kjdhsg;kjasdfhkme,noxicvu.,mabt;oGJUkits just pms....
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[24 Oct 2001|08:54pm] |
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she didnt call me
she said she would
i wanted to get to know her more
again
i knew her once
or at least i think i did
i wonder if she is still hanging on
shes sending me mixed signals
and i dont know
it just seems weird
the way she sounds
different yet exactly the same
im dissapointed
i know shes busy
but so am i
and i still make time for my friends
regardless
of what i am doing
and how muchi am doing
i dont know
i miss her maybe
im just being stupid
i met new people today
i dont know
i got some bad vibes
or maybe it was me who was sending them off
but there were these four or five
that really caught my attention
i met two or three of them
they were nice
one really nice one
shes really beautiful too
i dont know
not like anything will come of it
i think i completely immune to a relationship
but thats just me
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[23 Oct 2001|08:25pm] |
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dont let me fool you
with how free i appear to let you be
i dont think i do fool you
but just in case
dont think that i want you to be free
dont think i dont get jealous
and dont ever think i wont grieve if you find someone new
because i will grieve
and i do get jealous
and you know it
i think you do
i try to act as though i dont want to hold you back
and i dont
but i want you to want to be with me
so just dont be fooled...i love you
even though you dont read this
i love you
and you know
i dont think your fooled
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[23 Oct 2001|07:55pm] |
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this is where i express...simple as that people
im silly
im sad
im mad
im whatever
this is where it goes
i love to write...
so there will be a lot of writings on her
but mostly those are saved for my other journal
yes the other one
gaaaa....i dont want people i know reading this
because then i dont get to tell everything
and no everything can be told in general ideas
some things need to be screamed like "i hate jill"
or whoever
or i have a crush on jess
or whoever
or whatever
things you dont want anyone you know to know
just yet
do you get me?
i sure hope so
if your looking more into me
im also known as skinned_iris
so please come visit me
i get lonely sometimes
as everyone does
:)
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